So many times I sit back and wonder about how people live with the terrible things they do. Now when I say this, I don't mean it in any type of high and mighty way that I've never done anything wrong in my life. I've made bad decisions that I've had to deal with and am still dealing with a few of them, I am not in any way perfect. However, recently I've learned about a couple of things that have shocked me beyond belief. A few people that I know have done some terrible, terrible things. Two people that I care about very much have been wronged by those people, people who they thought cared about them, loved them even. One of these people has had so much shit thrown at her the past few years that I have endless admiration for her, she is stronger than probably anyone I know and yet is several years younger than me. She was wronged by three people who were once very close to her and even made her seem as if they were in the right, made it seem as if she somehow has deserved all her suffering because she has been a "bad christian". The other person wronged me and hurt me but I still care for him because we shared so much for a long time that I truly hurt for him. He was wronged by two of the people closest to him and no matter what anyone says, I still feel like no matter what he did to me, he in no way deserved that. I am literally shaking with anger and sadness that these two individuals are having to go through this because what has been done to them is beyond belief. Again I ask the question, how can people live with themselves? Why do people hurt others? Especially those closest to them?

I too am guilty of hurting people closest to me, I insult my father and make him feel less of himself but I am working on not doing this anymore. I also have the tendency to take out all my anger on my younger brother because he is nearby and will do the littlest thing that somehow sets me off. Thankfully, I've been away at college recently so I haven't the chance to hurt either one of them. In both of these cases, I don't intentionally hurt those that I love. Its the intentionally hurting those one loves that I can't understand. I guess its human nature, but honestly, if that human nature then I'm a little scared to see how we'll treat people in the future because it just seems that people are being treated worse as time goes on. I believe in that human kind is typically good but certain times test that belief.